AF - Are you kidding me?

Okay today is exactly 5wks4days since Aedyn was born and I just got AF! Are you kidding me, breastfeeding and pumping did not stop her from showing up! This is like some ugly joke or something.

Well - DH and I are still up in the air about taking the mini-pill. I have the prescription filled, but doubt I will take it. We have decided that since I am not going back to work and thus we are loosing quite a bit of income, we may not be able to afford the FET and maybe we should just try on our own again at least until we have some funds put aside for the FET to actually occur. Our plan is still April/May - so we will see.

Well Aedyn is awake, I need a shower and DH is now back to work. I miss him already!

Where Have I been?

updating more on Aedyn's blog.

Our Journey for number 2 is in a waiting pattern as we want to wait until she is at least 7-9 months old before starting on this road again.

I did get some good info - the Na.vy Clinic has the contract again and is in the midst of preparing to take IVF/FET clients again. Hopefully all the renovations will be done by the time we are ready and we can do our FET with our FAVORITE RE Dr. Lau.fer :)

Being a mom is great - everytime i look at this little girl, i am happy and sad at the same time.
I am so happy to have her in my life and I am saddened that she will never get to know her two older brothers Ethan and Andrew. But I am reminded that they are watching over her and have been from the very beginning. I also must admit I am sad that she will never know the sister/brother that she lost so early in her gestation. And again, I know that little spirit is with her brothers in the arms of Heaven.

Next week will be Aedyn's first day at chuch and is also her dedication.

No more meds

Okay - so after last nights feelings of being out of my mind and my body, I decided that I cannot continue taking the Reg.lan to help increase my milk production. I will have to accept what the the Good Lord is allowing me to have naturally. I figure I would take the fenugreek again - as the headaches have subsided and if it lowers my blood sugar i can just decrease my insulin needs until I am done taking it.

Truely - that medication had me so totally out of my mind, I couldnt even hold Aedyn for fear that I would drop her. I slept so much yesterday that when I woke, I was barely even awake. We tried to go out for dinner, I was so freaked out at dinner, we had to hurry up to get home. I dont ever want to feel that way again!

I woke up this morning like yesterday was a complete dream - just solidified that fact that I am not taking that stuff again.

I found this about it: all those in bold fit me!

What are the possible side effects of metoclopramide?

Stop using metoclopramide and call your doctor at once if you have any of these serious side effects:
tremors, or restless muscle movements in your eyes, tongue, jaw, or neck;
mask-like appearance of the face; fever, stiff muscles, confusion, sweating, fast or uneven heartbeats, rapid breathing; depressed mood, thoughts of suicide or hurting yourself;
hallucinations, anxiety, agitation, jittery feeling, trouble staying still;
swelling, fluid retention; jaundice (yellowing of your skin or eyes); or seizure (convulsions).

Less serious side effects may include:
feeling restless, drowsy, tired, or dizzy; headache, sleep problems (insomnia);
nausea, diarrhea; breast tenderness or swelling; changes in your menstrual periods; or
urinating more than usual.

This is not a complete list of side effects and others may occur. Tell your doctor about any unusual or bothersome side effect.

So needless to say - I am done with that stuff!

Not to mention -

What is metoclopramide?
Metoclopramide increases muscle contractions in upper digestive tract. This speeds up the rate at which the stomach empties into the intestines.
Metoclopramide is used short-term to treat heartburn caused by gastroesophageal reflux in people who have used other medications without relief of symptoms.
Metoclopramide is also used to treat slow gastric emptying in people with diabetes (also called diabetic gastroparesis), which can cause nausea, vomiting, heartburn, loss of appetite, and a feeling of fullness after meals.
Metoclopramide may also be used for other purposes not listed in this medication guide.

Okay - i know this is used to help with milk production..........but let me tell you Aedyn has had really really really bad gas pains for the last two days and I really think it is because of this medication.

I hope that it does go away now that I am not going to be taking it anymore.

Home Photo Shoot

Today, Aedyn will have a photographer from the hospital stop by and do a quick home photo shoot of her.

Pictures pictures pictures - we get a free 8x10 out of it and i am sure we'll probably spend more money on beautiful pictures.

DH went to the Protestant Men of the Chapel breakfast this morning, so Aedyn and I have been on our own.

I did get a quick shower while she took her first after meal nap - which was very short. She was fussy for a little bit and is back down after getting a 20unit top off of formula.

the BF/pumping is getting a little better, my 1 oz per pump has slightly increased to just under 1.5 oz per pump session.

Am now taking a prescription that should starting showing effects by the 4th day and hopefully I can get at least 3-4 oz per pump session for her.

On a different note:
I have tried to call the In.fertility Clinic all week and get the answering machine! I will be trying again next week. Since we go to the NTC at San Diego - I have to find out if we are able to use our RE when we do the FET next year, or if we have to plan on more $ and go to the actual Off Base Clinic for our FET. There have been some Navy Contract Issues with the Infer.tilty program this year......so we'll see what happens come April/May.

The Feet compairson

Okay - i know it is a little late to be comparing my feet.....

But I had to wait for my real feet to return in order to show you all the difference.

Today marks 42lbs lost out of the 50lbs I gained with Aedyn - yes I did say 42lbs!

After you look at my feet you will know that most of it was all water.

so this is how big my feet were at 34 wks.

And this is today how my feet look.

More thoughts

well - not many more thoughts right now. It is all very complicated.

DH and I are so super thrilled that Aedyn is here!

Right now the thought is to try again in April or May - we'll see how we feel when the time comes, waiting a little longer is not necessarily a bad thing.

We waited 5 years for her, what is a few more months for the second or third :)

Aedyn's Due Date

So today is the day - Aedyn was supposed to be due!

She came a few weeks early, 2wks2days early, and we couldnt be more overjoyed.

She is an amazing little girl and our miracle from God.


I know everyone is thinking, now that we have had a child, will we still continue this journey through IF?
Yes - I dont believe anyone every over comes IF. It is something that stays with you and is always learking in your mind.

We are planning to try again come April or May.

Although with my slightly advanced maternal age, we plan on using our frozen embryos for our second little miracle.
A few reasons being:
my age, time, my high risk status, and the fact that we are having a very difficult time with having 16 embryos frozen and what should be done with them.

we go back and forth with their future - mind you we will NEVER let them just be destroyed!


I have to finish my thoughts on this post a little later.

The little lady needs her diaper changed :)