I am exhausted and I only worked 3 days this week.
My mom came to visit so I took the 2 days she was here off to spend with her and Aedyn.
Aedyn loves her grandma that is for sure!
While I know there is this little body growing inside me and draining all my energy, Aedyn and I have so much fun together!
She has learned how to pull herself up and she loves to stand. When she is at her music table, I have started to sing "shake shake shake" and she will shake her little tushie! It is so cute. But everytime I get the camera to video clip it, she just stares at the camera. So I'll have to try to get her to do this while dad holds the camera.
She has finally got her second tooth coming in! One little ridge of the tooth has broken through the gum!
Tuesday is going to be another u/s day! We'll get to see little baby E's heartbeat again :) I think the NT scan will be scheduled for the 10th of July. Not too far off.
I am still in shock. I have no symptoms other than the fatigue, but that could be caused by anything really. I am working full-time, teaching online, and spending every waking moment Aedyn and hubby!
Although we are not always privy to the plan, there is a plan.
As you recall, in my last post, I got the Lap Band.
Well......Apparently on May 12th, when they did the pregnancy test before the surgery, I was not pregnant and I got banded! Now ready to reduce my weight, my insulin, and get active with Aedyn, I began this new journey.
After a failed FET in Februray and a failed Clomid cycle in March, I new that it would be okay to slow it down and wait at least half of my total goal for weight loss was achieved for us to try for a sibling.
Well this is where God had a plan.
Apparently, the pregnancy test they did on the 12th, was just too early to detect with urine. As of today, I am 8w5d pregnant with a singleton.
Now is the worry that the surgery may have done something to the development of this baby.
Your prayers are so needed and so appreciated!
The first u/s was today, a nice 158bpm and four little limbs growing, it was a beautiful sight.
We have choose not to find out the sex, but have agreed on both a girl and a boy name that starts with the letter E, so we will call this Baby E until the birthday.
Baby E is expected to come Jan 21, 2010, however we really believe that Dec 31, 2009 will be the birthday :)
A lot has changed in the 2 months I have not update my blog.
April marked the end of tax season and gave me a little more free time. This free time was not really free time, it was borrowed time from Aedyn. She is growing so fast, I can hardly keep up with her.
On cinco de Mayo, her first tooth broke skin! We are expecting the second one any day now.
I turned 36 this month and began to hear the clock ticking louder than ever before. After our failed FET in Feb and failed clomid cycle in March, I have not been looking forward to more failure.
I made a big leap all within a 27 day period. On April 15 - I went in for a check up and some recommendation on how to lose this infertility & baby weight. I was given a referal for the lap band. On April 24th - I met the Surgeon, Dr Simpson On April 30th - I had my Tricare approval for the lap band On May 12th - I was banded
And today day 13 of the band, I have lost 10 lbs
The goal of this is to lose at least 50 more lbs by November and do our FET.
I feel like time is going by so quickly that I may miss that window to have a sibling for Aeydn.
While it has been quite sometime since I have been updating my blog, a lot has happened.
I will start with seeking prayers for my beloved step grandfather, as he passed over the eve of saturday. He has now joined his wife. We will miss you and we will forever love you. I have had thoughts today that they are with my other grandparents playing with the twins.
These last few weeks have been hard on me. We had a FET cycle in February which resulted in a BFN. Just getting the blood test was an ordeal in itself. It took a few days for it to finally really hit me and when it did, boy did it. I ended up taking a day to myself to allow for depression. We thought that we should at least try the exact same method we did last year. We are on clomid this cycle. Let's see how this will work.
In the meantime, the sadness of loosing the twins, loosing Aedyn's twin, loosing two sets of two embryos, my grandma just before Christmas, and now grandpa J, has got me in the dumps.
I have found myself crying and missing the boys so much more when I am on the floor playing with Aedyn. I am sure this will pass, however, it is a little overwhelming.
I am not sure if this is all hormones due to the FET, or hormones as I go back to being normal, or if I am finally coming to reality.
We have been asked to give our testimony as to why we are thankful this year. So I thought I would also fill you in.
We will recap last year....
After years of trying to grow our family DH and I turned to Fertility Treatments and went through IVF in April. We carried twins until Aug 24/25, 2007. At just over 20 wks, they came into the world and were with us for such a very short time. Through many months of grieving, we tried again only to find out the week of Thanksgiving last year, that we were not expecting. We scheduled to try again in December, and after quite a bit of anxiety and overwhelming grief for the Christmas Holiday, we cancelled our frozen transfer and decided that we could try on our own with the fertility meds we still had. And on December 30th, when I had all but given up on the idea of being pregnant, I took a home pregnancy test and it was a very very very light positive. I went the next day to confirm with a blood test - we were indeed pregnant. Our year started out great and in the middle of this great year, we lost 2 beautiful boys, only to end this year on the same great note we started on. Within weeks of the new year, we found out that not only did we have 2 angels, we were expecting 2 babies again. We were overwhelmed with joy and fear. It was Ash Wednesday - what would I give up this lenten season? God made that choice for me, one of the twins heartbeat had stopped. We would wait and watch over this pregnancy for the next 27 weeks. This was a long journey, but this year we are so thankful for the prayers, the doctors, and the gift that God gave us with Aedyn and 3 Angels to watch over her.