What a Hump Day!

so lets see - where to start, where to start?

yesterday was a blur until later in the evening when Aedyn decided that moving around and being noticeable was not going to be her style for the night - needless to say, it freaked me out, so I brought out the big gun....okay the little doppler. took quite some time to find her heartbeat, about the time I was trying to calm myself, I decided to just hold the doppler above my belly button and press firmly! I guess she woke up - coz all the sudden I got the big swooshing, swooshing, and about 10 seconds of heartbeat 155....then the swooshing commenced, I felt a lot better even though i still couldnt feel her moving around.
I realized that it seems like over night, but my shirts are so much tighter today than they were last week - I am assuming she just got some more room in there with the uterus expanding yet again and I just couldnt feel it.

I really do ramble on, so forgive me...where was I?

Hump Day - the day was long and hot and got worse! while on the drive home, a little rock decided that my windshield was going to be its victim! Uggg - I hate having to replace my windshield. my military base sticker is on the windshield!!! what does this mean? well Luke AFB doesnt issue them, annoying......so if we go out of town or to another military base, we have to stop at the visitor gate and get a pass every time! we normally get our sticker from San Diego Naval base..................I guess we will just have to make a trip up there soon. I am sure Aedyn will want to visit with Dr Laufer, after all he had a hand in bringing her to us. I would rather go up there NOW ---- it is an inferno here in AZ.

Finally got my vents at work open, so my office can be a cool 70 degrees :) 3 years i have been freezing in my office with the vents CLOSED and now i am burning up and they are open!

Well enough of me complaining.

Aedyn decided that kicking me noticably today was cool, so when a co-worker pointed out that my belly was jumping, she just had to kick me more! It was kinda cool and at the same time, a little painful, I definatly had to go pee after her kicking.....she is going to be quite the handful.

And we want to do this again next summer!

Father's Day weekend

okay - so i know that i said we would finish her room. Alas, we never stepped into her room this weekend. So many things took over. it is the end of our fiscal year at work and some purchases needed to be made. spent most of Saturday AM getting this done, by the time we got home, it was so hot outside, all i could do was lay on the bean bags and veg out.
Sunday - we didnt really do any celebrating - it seems that between remembering the loss of our two sons, it was hard to celebrate the upcoming birth of our little girl. instead we decided that going to chuch and getting our groceries and coming home to spend some quality time together was better for us. avoid all the crowds and all the daddy talk for now.

Aedyn has been giving me some contractions but they seems to have subsided after my P17 shot - so far none today.

Picture this!!! it really is funny - and you can even try it at home for yourself :)
I had to renew my CPR certification today......the dummy on the floor and round pregnant girl over it trying to lean down to do the ABC's of CPR...needless to say, I kicked the guy next to me, because standing on my knees and leaning over just doesnt work....so i almost layed down and kicked my leg out which hit him! luckily he didnt think anything of it.
so - how do you try this at home you ask!
take a basket ball, tuck it under your shirt, stand on you knees and lean forward tilting your head to do the Look Listen and Hear step....you will defiantly fall over -just like me :)

Oh yeah, after kicking this guy, he was nice enough to help me back up off the floor.

Well at least it is done now!

And it brought back all those things i need to remember about CPR for babies! A major plus.

I wont promise, but I think I will finish her room this weekend while Daddy is at a nice and cool sound board confrence for chuch on Saturday!

By the way - Goodyear's high today was the highest in the Valley of Sun - 115!!!!! INFERNO!

Time Fly's

time has been flying by so quickly - summer is here and boy is it HOT!

DH and I celebrated our 5 year anniversay Saturday that just passed in Pinetop, AZ. It was beautiful up there. We hung out in the beautiful small town, got some local diner food, caught a movie, went swimming at the resort, and caught the races at Thund.er Race.way.
The races were great, loud engines and exhaust - the bleachers and uncomfortableness was not so fun. I think Aedyn will enjoy the races, she was quite active and kicking a lot while we were there, especially when the engines reved up nice and loud.
She has been moving around so much lately, when she is not moving, i have to give her a little wiggle.

Work is also pretty busy these days, it is the end of the fiscal year and we are trying to make sure we are ready to close the books and start a new fiscal year. Summer time is definatley my busy time. Last year, our Fincial audit was done while I was on leave, and it seems that it will be the same this year......I wish I could say I planned it this way, but I can't.

We had our 3rd echo done last friday and Aedyn's heart is just perfect. The MFM wants us to come back on the 20th for a growth scan to see where we are with her weight.
My blood sugar this weekend was really bad - I think she decided to have some growth spurt, because i got my insulin pump adjusted and it was back to normal for a day or two. it is getting high again - so i am sure they will adjust it again tomorrow.
funny how breakfast today is exactly the same as breakfast yesterday and my sugar is almost 40 points different! she is definatly growing!!!

Have a great weekend! I plan on truely finishing the room this weekend and will post the finished product by Sunday Night.

Wk 26

oh what an exciting day today has been.

we got to see little Aedyn and gave in......Aedyn is definately a GIRL!

she is beautiful and already has an attitude, she didnt want us taking any pictures of her face, so she kept putting her hands infront of her face, then she just had to show off how big her foot was.

the most amazing photo of all - looks as though she is praying that we will just leave her be so she can sleep.

here are a few of the pictures! and her is her site so you can see all 70 pictures.

http://www.babysites.com/sites/aedyn/

Memorial Day Weekend

Okay so i have been MIA - sorry!

I have been here and there and everywhere lately.

We are now into wk 25 and it still seems somewhat surreal. I look at my boys everyday and smile and then a tear comes okay so a few tears come. I miss them so much.

And when I start to get too sad, I feel little Aedyn moving around as if to remind me that although the boys are in heaven, she is here and will be to help mend my broken heart.

we plan on finishing her room this coming weekend after we have a 26wk 4D u/s. i will definatly post her pics after the u/s and the little movie if i can figure that out.

Oddly enough, i find myself planning for her future sibling(s) - with a transfer either at the end of April or the beginning of May, or every month there after until we are preggers.

I am getting older and I feel like the clock is ticking ever so loudly these days - many of the ladies I am around are either old enough to be my mom or their children are old enough to be my child's parent.

I digress.....

Have a great week and check back on Sunday for pictures of Aedyn!!!

Starting Aedyn's Room

Okay so i have some pictures to upload of Aedyn's room as we begin to complete it for her arrival. Yes i know we have 4 months to go, but it takes me a lot of time to make up my mind.

we are by all means not complete with the room.

we still have the glider to put together and place in the room along with the wall hangings.

we have a ton of clothes already!

Aedyn loves music!

Well it is tuesday! the week is not even over.....................

i have found that the more stimulation that is on around me, the more Aedyn moves around.
it is like she is dancing in my tummy. so i of course over do it..............listening to music and feeling her flip and jiggle around in there is such fun.....well that is until she feels the need to run into my bladder or jab me in the rib cage :)

Mother's Day has come and gone

So Mother's day has come and gone.

Although it was not a difficult day emotionally, the day after has been much harder.

My mom called, and i got a few text messages saying Happy Mothers Day.

DH knew that I wanted nothing to do with the celebration of the day. It is hard enough on us to know that we should have two little beautiful boys at home with us, but they are in heaven.

I know we have now come 23 wks into this pregnany and I am still not comfortable with everything.

I am however getting much better with my attachment to this baby.
as each week progresses and her movements become much more frequent, i am starting to feel more and more comfort in bringing her home sometime in August or September.

I will be updating her website with all of the u/s pictures this week - and i will add the link when i am done.

I also found my camera so i can take pictures of her room!

Oh yeah - i still think she is a girl, but will know for sure on her birthday :)

Cinco De Mayo!!

so my first day of 35 came and went - nothing special, no noticable changes.

Little Aedyn is moving around much more now and defintely reminds me when it is time to eat something - with a few jabs in the abs and a nice streatch pushing against a rib or two.

Although with all the cushion in the mid section it isnt anything anyone else would notice.

I will begin practicing on my Guitar again in the next week - i have a nylon acoustic and the strings are being a little picky, i will probably go and get a steele string this week.
I am not great, but I want to learn to play the first song on this list by the David Crowder Band.

And they say at about wk 24, the baby can hear, i figure not only will the baby hear, but Aedyn will be able to feel the vibrations of the guitar against my belly.

well the week so far has started off a little slow - which is going to make the week drag, luckily i dont have to work on Friday - first the u/s and echo then off to Vegas.

kind of a mix of emotions on this mothers day weekend to come.

My last day of 34

today is the last day i will be 34 - it is somewhat bittersweet. while my best laid plans were to have 2 beautiful and vibrant children before i was 35 - while part is true the other is yet to come.

i have 2 beautiful boys who in the heavens are vibrant babies.

i will celebrate this birthday with a baby on the way - 21w6d - more than half way there.

today one year ago i was given news of a positive beta - a birthday present that i never thought could be topped. and although there is nothing that can top the joy of my first day of 34. i know that this little miracle is just that a miracle and that we are so blessed and greatful to God for all he has done and given us.

i miss my boys.