Wow has it been that long?

Wow! I guess I have neglected this blog for quite some time.

I have been updating Aedyn's blog - not as regularily as I would like. But there are some great new pictures of her growing up!

http://www.aedynsatori.blogspot.com/

Well, where to begin?

Lets start --- as you know we found out in June that we were expecting again!

We are now at 34 weeks 4 days and expect that we have about 2 weeks 3 days left, however, give or take 3-5 days.

We have held out and still do not know whether this is a boy or a girl - we do however have names picked for a boy and a girl, both starting with the letter E.

Aedyn has grown over these 15 months into quite the busy little girl. She has a little sas walking about the house with her little hands on her hips all the time. It is really cute!

Here is the most recent photo of our full of life little girl!

What a week!

This has been quite a long week!

I am exhausted and I only worked 3 days this week.

My mom came to visit so I took the 2 days she was here off to spend with her and Aedyn.

Aedyn loves her grandma that is for sure!

While I know there is this little body growing inside me and draining all my energy, Aedyn and I have so much fun together!

She has learned how to pull herself up and she loves to stand. When she is at her music table, I have started to sing "shake shake shake" and she will shake her little tushie! It is so cute. But everytime I get the camera to video clip it, she just stares at the camera. So I'll have to try to get her to do this while dad holds the camera.

She has finally got her second tooth coming in! One little ridge of the tooth has broken through the gum!

Tuesday is going to be another u/s day! We'll get to see little baby E's heartbeat again :) I think the NT scan will be scheduled for the 10th of July. Not too far off.

I am still in shock. I have no symptoms other than the fatigue, but that could be caused by anything really. I am working full-time, teaching online, and spending every waking moment Aedyn and hubby!

God has a plan....

Although we are not always privy to the plan, there is a plan.

As you recall, in my last post, I got the Lap Band.

Well......Apparently on May 12th, when they did the pregnancy test before the surgery, I was not pregnant and I got banded!
Now ready to reduce my weight, my insulin, and get active with Aedyn, I began this new journey.

After a failed FET in Februray and a failed Clomid cycle in March, I new that it would be okay to slow it down and wait at least half of my total goal for weight loss was achieved for us to try for a sibling.

Well this is where God had a plan.

Apparently, the pregnancy test they did on the 12th, was just too early to detect with urine.
As of today, I am 8w5d pregnant with a singleton.

Now is the worry that the surgery may have done something to the development of this baby.

Your prayers are so needed and so appreciated!

The first u/s was today, a nice 158bpm and four little limbs growing, it was a beautiful sight.

We have choose not to find out the sex, but have agreed on both a girl and a boy name that starts with the letter E, so we will call this Baby E until the birthday.

Baby E is expected to come Jan 21, 2010, however we really believe that Dec 31, 2009 will be the birthday :)

Changes

A lot has changed in the 2 months I have not update my blog.

April marked the end of tax season and gave me a little more free time. This free time was not really free time, it was borrowed time from Aedyn. She is growing so fast, I can hardly keep up with her.

On cinco de Mayo, her first tooth broke skin! We are expecting the second one any day now.

I turned 36 this month and began to hear the clock ticking louder than ever before. After our failed FET in Feb and failed clomid cycle in March, I have not been looking forward to more failure.

I made a big leap all within a 27 day period.
On April 15 - I went in for a check up and some recommendation on how to lose this infertility & baby weight. I was given a referal for the lap band.
On April 24th - I met the Surgeon, Dr Simpson
On April 30th - I had my Tricare approval for the lap band
On May 12th - I was banded

And today day 13 of the band, I have lost 10 lbs

The goal of this is to lose at least 50 more lbs by November and do our FET.

I feel like time is going by so quickly that I may miss that window to have a sibling for Aeydn.

Passing

While it has been quite sometime since I have been updating my blog, a lot has happened.

I will start with seeking prayers for my beloved step grandfather, as he passed over the eve of saturday. He has now joined his wife. We will miss you and we will forever love you.
I have had thoughts today that they are with my other grandparents playing with the twins.

These last few weeks have been hard on me. We had a FET cycle in February which resulted in a BFN. Just getting the blood test was an ordeal in itself. It took a few days for it to finally really hit me and when it did, boy did it. I ended up taking a day to myself to allow for depression.
We thought that we should at least try the exact same method we did last year. We are on clomid this cycle. Let's see how this will work.

In the meantime, the sadness of loosing the twins, loosing Aedyn's twin, loosing two sets of two embryos, my grandma just before Christmas, and now grandpa J, has got me in the dumps.

I have found myself crying and missing the boys so much more when I am on the floor playing with Aedyn. I am sure this will pass, however, it is a little overwhelming.

I am not sure if this is all hormones due to the FET, or hormones as I go back to being normal, or if I am finally coming to reality.

Where to find me

I have been so busy that I haven't really had much time to post.

I am now 6 days late and we have a lining u/s scheduled for 2/17 and our FET scheduled the following week....

so we will see.

Pray for AF to show up!

You can find more posts.....well at least a few more on Aedyn's blog:

http://aedynsatori.blogspot.com/

Come see us over there!