Passing

While it has been quite sometime since I have been updating my blog, a lot has happened.

I will start with seeking prayers for my beloved step grandfather, as he passed over the eve of saturday. He has now joined his wife. We will miss you and we will forever love you.
I have had thoughts today that they are with my other grandparents playing with the twins.

These last few weeks have been hard on me. We had a FET cycle in February which resulted in a BFN. Just getting the blood test was an ordeal in itself. It took a few days for it to finally really hit me and when it did, boy did it. I ended up taking a day to myself to allow for depression.
We thought that we should at least try the exact same method we did last year. We are on clomid this cycle. Let's see how this will work.

In the meantime, the sadness of loosing the twins, loosing Aedyn's twin, loosing two sets of two embryos, my grandma just before Christmas, and now grandpa J, has got me in the dumps.

I have found myself crying and missing the boys so much more when I am on the floor playing with Aedyn. I am sure this will pass, however, it is a little overwhelming.

I am not sure if this is all hormones due to the FET, or hormones as I go back to being normal, or if I am finally coming to reality.